孤獨片刻

Louis C.K. 在這期柯南秀裡谈到了對孤獨的思考:

You need to build an ability to just be yourself and not be doing something. That’s what the phones are taking away, is the ability to just sit there. That’s being a person. Because underneath everything in your life there is that thing, that empty – forever empty. That knowledge that it’s all for nothing and that you’re alone. It’s down there.

這幾乎是一種陳詞濫調了——孤獨是生活的內核,新媒介帶來的信息通脹加劇了孤獨雲雲雲雲。可接著的片段極其動人:

And sometimes when things clear away, you’re not watching anything, you’re in your car, and you start going, ‘oh no, here it comes. That I’m alone.’ It’s starts to visit on you. Just this sadness. Life is tremendously sad, just by being in it…

And I go, ‘oh, I’m getting sad, gotta get the phone and write “hi” to like 50 people’…then I said, ‘you know what, don’t. Just be sad. Just let the sadness, stand in the way of it, and let it hit you like a truck.’

And I let it come, and I just started to feel ‘oh my God’, and I pulled over and I just cried like a bitch. I cried so much. And it was beautiful. Sadness is poetic. You’re lucky to live sad moments.

Louis 把自己敏感脆弱坦率地擺在公眾面前,令人動容。去追溯 Louis C.K. 的作品,這份敏感,以及在這敏感之上生長的懦弱、刻薄、頹喪、時而得意洋洋,是角色魅力的不二源泉。

我幾乎第一時間想到了張小龍在飯否的 2359 條自言自語,其中一篇是這樣的:

这么多年了,我还在做通讯工具,这让我相信一个宿命,每一个不善沟通的孩子都有强大的帮助别人沟通的内在力量。

——2011-01-23 01:54

相似吧?孤獨成了創作的動機。接受孤獨的宿命,直面孤獨帶來的悲傷,從中獲得某種深邃的同情,對 Louis 來說它是故事的聽眾,對張小龍是微信的用戶。

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Louis 這期訪談相關文字整理可以看

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